I am so mad at my parents right now, and a little bit at myself.

For those who don't know her, which should be most of you, Jorden is probably my best friend. She's the person I can tell anything to, and we share practically everything with each other. She had her birthday party tonight, and I was pretty excited to go, and she really wanted to come.

But I asked my parents this morning and they said no. Me and her were crushed. Why do my parents have to be so nazi-like, controlling power freaks?! Like, holy shit, let me get out of this sheltered Christian lifestyle and let me meet someone new for once. Like... honestly. I'm so frustrated, and I don't know what to do about it, because if I try and do anything, I get punished, making it even harder to meet the people I want to. How do I get out of this life??...

Jorden, if you're reading this, I'm so sorry I couldn't come, and I'm sorry I broke my promise... I shouldn't have promised something that was out of my control. I'll make it up to you, I promise, I really do.

Hey everybody.

Last night, for anyone reading this who didn't go to my school dance... there was a school dance. I went, as usual, and so did "she". Being the complete wuss I am, I didn't ask her to dance the first slow dance. However... when the second dance came on, I asked her if she wanted to dance, and she said no, she had to go outside. One of our friends was crying about something, so that was an allright reason. So I went and got a drink.

When I got back in, I saw her dancing with another guy. It basically felt like she kicked me in the nuts. I was, obviously, kinda pissed off. I talked to one of her friends, who is one of my best friends, and she told me that she was, I guess, too lazy to come get me. Sure.

Final dance, I ask her to dance with me and we dance. I asked her whether she had figured out who she liked yet, she nodded, then said, "I think it's better if we just stayed friends." And so, that was it.

 

So, heartbroken? Eh. Heart-dissappointed? Heck yes. But you know, I gave it a shot, and I didn't lose anything except a bit of my pride, and I'm fine with just being friends.

No regrets.

 

Later.